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Hi my name is so and so, sometimes when i'm bored, i draw people in my head. I listen to music a lot but the best times are usually when i'm on the bus. I don't think many people know about me because I keep a low profile. On days when i'm upset, i paint my toe nails and red is my favourite color. I have white feet, they remind me of porcelain. My eyes resemble almonds and my lids look like define lines imprinted in clay. I wish I were somebody else, maybe superman perhaps, my red cape in the wind, ever so free. My blog is a collection of my perspectives, thoughts and emotions. I write when I write, what I write. Your critism is not welcomed.

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Enough is enough .
9:05 AM
Friday, May 29, 2009
Lost in your eyes ,
ever since i saw your face .
Tried pulling myself back , but each time was an effort in vain.
Waited for your calls , each night .
Stared at the plain beige ceiling , looking at sky .
Why do the stars refuse to shine , i ask silently.
As i close my eyes , i hold my cellphone .
Still waiting .
Still waiting.
As i wait , memories flash back .
I see pictures of me & you .
Holding hands , sharing kisses , hugging each other , reading love notes passed to each other.
& i realise , how much i've missed you .
ever since the day , you stopped calling.
& i pretended to be strong .
It was all a facade.
When you look into a girl's heart ,you'll realise how much she's been thru.
All the tears , the laughters & the pain .
When you look into a girl's heart ,
you'll know , that she's actually simple to understand.
& not stereotypical.
When you look into a girl's heart ,
you'll know , that she's steadfast in her love .
& is still awaiting for you .
Don't leave her.
You'll never know how much you ever meant to her.
Don't abandon her .
She needs you .
Don't treat her like trash ,
she's fragile .
Just be there,
to make her feel loved .
All she needs is to feel that she's loved by you wholeheartedly.
All she needs is you .
When you look into MY heart ,
all you'll EVER find is YOU.
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Enough of this pretence , i've had enough of the pain that i have to go thru just to put a strong mask up for you . No , really . That whole chunk above was written by ME . It sums up on the way i feel . like seriously . Its the hols , and i don't think i'm gonna enjoy it . I've been feeling so down lately . & in school , i act all perky and all just to hide it all up . But i know it shows , a little . PTC sucked shit. I cried again . That made me even more upset than i ever was. I mean , all this false pretence game is getting to me . I don't want to put up this strong front for show , i want to be strong for REAL . I don't feel any love besides it coming from my awesome girlfs ( i love you guys oh so much ) & a couple of my guypals . Mamah & papah has been a little okay i guess . But bro , woah . I just don't know him . He's not like the brother i used to adore like mad . Guess people DO change . & i'm suffering from insomnia , wait . Maybe not . I have nocturnal habits . So yeah . Back to it , everyday , I face certain people in my life who are just seriously not worth it . NOT FUCKING WORTH IT . They're so wasted and all . Urgh . Papah's been venting his anger on me tho ... and i'm not feeling well once again . Felt like fucking fainting at SG foodfair today .
Met Xinyi (: lol. Oh , & Kells , i wish my mum were as awesome as your mum . Envy envy .
& Nicole Sweetheart , its okay . We'll go home tgt some time again , another day (: meetup soon huns. Misery has been my bestfriend since idk when . But i've really had it this time . Enough of letting misery take over my life . No , really . but , sadly . I can't seem to even have the strength to pull myself up from this blackhole . Pathetic or what . Sigh , we all have better days . But it seems my better days were far gone . I can't get a job to add to my savings cause the ... govt had to increase the age requirement . Thanks ah thanks . And so yeah . All i can do is think of my past , what made me so happy , and that feeling covers up that shitty miserable pathetic self up . Temporary .


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