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Hi my name is so and so, sometimes when i'm bored, i draw people in my head. I listen to music a lot but the best times are usually when i'm on the bus. I don't think many people know about me because I keep a low profile. On days when i'm upset, i paint my toe nails and red is my favourite color. I have white feet, they remind me of porcelain. My eyes resemble almonds and my lids look like define lines imprinted in clay. I wish I were somebody else, maybe superman perhaps, my red cape in the wind, ever so free. My blog is a collection of my perspectives, thoughts and emotions. I write when I write, what I write. Your critism is not welcomed.

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Why not , ey ?
8:06 AM
Sunday, May 31, 2009
Haha , I know i like so totally just blogged.
But i'm like rotting alrd. So yes.
I shall blog somemore.
Only one teensy moronic glitch to my oh so awesome plan to blog .
Idk what to blog about . Teehee.
.... like 5 minutes later....

Oh , i so totally know what to blog about alrd ! This post is gonna be super materialistic . But HEY ! A girl's gotta have her daily shopping spree .
Pffft ~
Wait for the most awesome thing yet .
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*drumroll please *
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COOL OR WHAT ?
I'm going to ask my uncle who migrated to US to get me those for my belated birthday prez . Oh , and i'll post some peektures of my little angmoh cousins , Tiegan , Quinn & Alex . Quinn is DAMN cute ((((:
Again , wait for the next post.

End of rant.

I WANT I WANT I WANT I WANT .


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Au contraire .
5:38 AM

Chalet was AWESOME .
(: Ton-ed . Okay. Best .
Don't want to blog about it much , cause i'm lazy to type. Heehee (:
Peektures from chalet will be uploaded tmrw , cause i am fucking exhausted from only 1hr&9mins of sleep.
Pfft . Loved chalet (:


& left today . Still had fun , currently chatting with darling SyafaHanisPutri (:
My awesome girlf .
p/s , last long hons .

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I have typed previously that Happiness is nothing but temporary .
& yes . I know i sound totally emo shiet and all , but seriously . Isn't it the truth when you really think about it ? I've been upset and all . yeaps, i admit. But i'm heeding my girlfs & guyfs advice , to forget all those miserable events & just move on . be happy altho its temporary . Each momentum will be worthwhile .

So, i'm gonna get it over with . Gotta stay strong , & i gotta believe.

All tags replied on my tagboard or else your tagboard (:

I'ma love you long time , boy.
As promised , next post will be peektures fo sure !

xoxo.


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Momentary .
10:39 AM
Friday, May 29, 2009
is nothing but temporary.
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Yes , i feel a little better thanks to Kells (:
Love you babe .
I don't know what to bring to ray's chalet . So blur , i know.
Oh and , its actually like 1:45 in the morn , i actually mistook it for 10 at night .
=X
Oh wellll ...
And to make it up for kells .
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ystd
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Had Founder's Day mass . boring like fcuk. Slept like half the mass (((:
Father arro has a cool french accent :D
Thirsty pronounce as THIERSTIE .
Cool or what . hahahaha .
After that , had to clean class -.-
I dumped my books in the blue lockers . Hehee.
Helped kelli dump her books too (:
Then , nicole , Haziqah , Kells & I bus-ed to tiong .
We went to the third floor , and kells was freaking out .
and i mean FREAKING OUT .
About to go back to sch , when walking thru the underpass , kells said , " OMG , we're not gonna take the train right ? " Then Haziqah , Nicole & I were like ... KELLS ! ahahahah . There's like no freaking train that goes to sch , LOL ! only Buses , huns. We were like , Kelli , you never been to school isit ? Sth like that. i can't rmb alr.
Okay , bus-ed back to sch .
had great time at foyer . Nicole & Haziqah left.
Then kell's mum came (: hi , auntie.
She damn cool la omgz.
ahha.
Okay , aftr that , i had PTC which sucked.
.... End .
Oh , & kelli kept looking at what she bought for "her" friend.
Loveee .


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Karma points .
9:44 AM

What hell have i done to bloody deserve this .
Damn , i wanted to hapilly blog about today . Turns out to be the other way .
Now i'm tearing while typing . Great .

I need Nicole Sweetheart . I can't take it any longer . Its too much to bear . Fuck this shiet making me sound so emo . But i'm not . Its all my pain & misery translated into a effing blogpost.
Damn , if i ever knew that i'd deserve this . I should have just done off with myself years ago .
I don't know what to do now . I'm in such a maze that i can't seem to get out off . Tell me , what did i do to deserve this ? I've been torn apart before , but the pain just added on . I thought it was enough to numb me once and for all . I guess NOT . I can't type so much . My eyes getting blurry . Fuck uh . How am i supposed to enjoy tmr .

Hell to it .
I'm going to get DRUNK . Get DRUNK . Until i spill my sorrows out without having to know that i poured all my misery out . That'll be best .

Till then ,
don't bother .

I'm not in a awesome condition . However , if anyone needs my shoulder to lean on , we'll both cry together .

Where were you in my darkest hour ?

i don't feel like doing anything . if painkillers & coke could kill, i'd have died long ago.

Fuck , my headache's back on .

Ah ! NEVERMIND . I DIE , best .


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Enough is enough .
9:05 AM

Lost in your eyes ,
ever since i saw your face .
Tried pulling myself back , but each time was an effort in vain.
Waited for your calls , each night .
Stared at the plain beige ceiling , looking at sky .
Why do the stars refuse to shine , i ask silently.
As i close my eyes , i hold my cellphone .
Still waiting .
Still waiting.
As i wait , memories flash back .
I see pictures of me & you .
Holding hands , sharing kisses , hugging each other , reading love notes passed to each other.
& i realise , how much i've missed you .
ever since the day , you stopped calling.
& i pretended to be strong .
It was all a facade.
When you look into a girl's heart ,you'll realise how much she's been thru.
All the tears , the laughters & the pain .
When you look into a girl's heart ,
you'll know , that she's actually simple to understand.
& not stereotypical.
When you look into a girl's heart ,
you'll know , that she's steadfast in her love .
& is still awaiting for you .
Don't leave her.
You'll never know how much you ever meant to her.
Don't abandon her .
She needs you .
Don't treat her like trash ,
she's fragile .
Just be there,
to make her feel loved .
All she needs is to feel that she's loved by you wholeheartedly.
All she needs is you .
When you look into MY heart ,
all you'll EVER find is YOU.
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Enough of this pretence , i've had enough of the pain that i have to go thru just to put a strong mask up for you . No , really . That whole chunk above was written by ME . It sums up on the way i feel . like seriously . Its the hols , and i don't think i'm gonna enjoy it . I've been feeling so down lately . & in school , i act all perky and all just to hide it all up . But i know it shows , a little . PTC sucked shit. I cried again . That made me even more upset than i ever was. I mean , all this false pretence game is getting to me . I don't want to put up this strong front for show , i want to be strong for REAL . I don't feel any love besides it coming from my awesome girlfs ( i love you guys oh so much ) & a couple of my guypals . Mamah & papah has been a little okay i guess . But bro , woah . I just don't know him . He's not like the brother i used to adore like mad . Guess people DO change . & i'm suffering from insomnia , wait . Maybe not . I have nocturnal habits . So yeah . Back to it , everyday , I face certain people in my life who are just seriously not worth it . NOT FUCKING WORTH IT . They're so wasted and all . Urgh . Papah's been venting his anger on me tho ... and i'm not feeling well once again . Felt like fucking fainting at SG foodfair today .
Met Xinyi (: lol. Oh , & Kells , i wish my mum were as awesome as your mum . Envy envy .
& Nicole Sweetheart , its okay . We'll go home tgt some time again , another day (: meetup soon huns. Misery has been my bestfriend since idk when . But i've really had it this time . Enough of letting misery take over my life . No , really . but , sadly . I can't seem to even have the strength to pull myself up from this blackhole . Pathetic or what . Sigh , we all have better days . But it seems my better days were far gone . I can't get a job to add to my savings cause the ... govt had to increase the age requirement . Thanks ah thanks . And so yeah . All i can do is think of my past , what made me so happy , and that feeling covers up that shitty miserable pathetic self up . Temporary .


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WTF
2:00 PM
Thursday, May 28, 2009
I tried banning the spammer.
Turns out my IP is being blocked. FTW !

Thats it , Goodbye Shoutmix ! Hello , CBOX !


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WTF
2:00 PM

I tried banning the spammer.
Turns out my IP is being blocked. FTW !

Thats it , Goodbye Shoutmix ! Hello , CBOX !


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heheheheheh .
12:55 PM








Nothing can be better than 4 in the morn gossip session with Kells :D By the way , in this peek , we were talking about the SG food fair 09 (: I thik the MEOW from kells meant that i won the argument ^^

Love you.
( & open conver peek if you want , don't blame me for any discomfort or anyth , which i clearly doubt you'll have. )

xoxo.


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heheheheheh .
12:55 PM


Nothing can be better than 4 in the morn gossip session with Kells :D

Love you.
( & open conver peek if you want , don't blame me for any discomfort or anyth , which i clearly doubt you'll have. )

xoxo.


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Honeyed words just flew straight out , didn't it ?
10:40 AM

love



Where's the love ? I don't feel it any more.


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Lost in your eyes , ever since i saw your face .
Tried pulling myself back , but each time was an effort in vain.
Waited for your calls , each night .
Stared at the plain beige ceiling , looking at sky .
Why do the stars refuse to shine , i ask silently.
As i close my eyes , i hold my cellphone .
Still waiting .
Still waiting.
As i wait , memories flash back .
I see pictures of me & you .
Holding hands , sharing kisses , hugging each other , reading love notes passed to each other.
& i realise , how much i've missed you .
ever since the day , you stopped calling.
& i pretended to be strong .
It was all a facade.
When you look into a girl's heart ,
you'll realise how much she's been thru.
All the tears , the laughters & the pain .
When you look into a girl's heart ,
you'll know , that she's actually simple to understand.
& not stereotypical.
When you look into a girl's heart ,
you'll know , that she's steadfast in her love .
& is still awaiting for you .
Don't leave her.
You'll never know how much you ever meant to her.
Don't abandon her .
She needs you .
Don't treat her like trash ,
she's fragile .
Just be there,
make her feel loved .
All she needs is to feel that she's loved by you wholeheartedly.
All she needs is you .
When you look into MY heart ,
all you'll find is YOU.
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That concludes on how i totally feel.
Thanks , Faez .
For entertaining me , and it was totally fun & enjoyable . Even tho , i spoiled it , cause my mood got down for some reason . And i'm really sorry. Hope you get all better , so we can chat & laugh on the phone again . been some time since i last saw you , meet up soon . Takecare & thankyou for always being there for me . Totally appreciated.Like yeah.
I'm chatting with Kells on MSN. Like major SuJu fan . LOLSZX.
Thanks to all those who's been there for me as well. You guys = AWESOME. I'm sure i don't have to type out who you people are. You know who you are . Cause you guys are like the dearest to me , & i love you guys from the bottom of my heart .
Stay awesome , lovelies.

End .
xoxo.



Like wtf , am i sick of the MSN worms or what! I mean like come on , each time you're chatting , its a freaking pop up saying things like : " wanna meet single galszx ready to **** . " Stupid man . Damn annoying la ! screw you worms , you ain't never gonna hack into my system ^^


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I fucking don't know you anymore
10:19 AM

yes , i fucking don't know you anymore .
you seriously think that he's better , than go ahead !
I'M NOT GONNA CARE ABOUT YOU ANYMORE !
cause you're such a waste of my time and breath .
Yes you are . I don't know why i even cared to clarify , man .
When you don't even see the fact that you're not the same .
& that you think that the new person's better .
Fuck it man . I tried waking you up , bring you to your senses but it seems to be HOPELESS.
fucking HOPELESS. Maybe its the fact then you care more than FRIENDS other than people whom you claim that's CLOSER to you than FRIENDS are .

So you know what . Go ahead . I'm not gonna bother. On that day , i'll just wear a fake smile , altho i can't take wearing it . I will . Cause you're such a facade yourself . Go ahead. If their so precious , then go on . Since i'm nothing to you already . Go ahead , man .
I'm not gonna Interfere in anything , any shiet you do no more.
I just won't . It'll just prolly spoil everything . If i continue caring , i think it'll all end up in the gutter . Just like how our friendship's gonna end.

Fuck it alr .

From now onwards , i wash my hands of YOU .


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& before i forget , which i never will.
2:04 AM

Happy Birthday to mamah ! :D
ily mamah , no matter how much you nag & PMS at me .

(((:
Takecare . You'll always be in my heart .


Loveeeeeee .

xoxo.


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& before i forget , which i never will.
2:04 AM

Happy Birthday to mamah ! :D


ily mamah , no matter how much you nag & PMS at me .




(((:


Takecare . You'll always be in my heart .






Loveeeeeee .




xoxo.


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Last fantasy Ride.
1:55 AM

Tmrw , i have god damn dreaded PTC )):
and after that , i'll be heading out (:
Out out out out ((((:

Most prolly be out with zaidi & another friend . Maybe , not tonning , cause i gotta prolly head down to Ray's Chalet (:
Gonna get drunk - oh ! :D
Chalet from saturday to sunday . And i'll be tonning on saturday till sunday .
Aftr sunday , i'll be goddamn freeeee :D

So just inform me for any meetups / outings .
text me , IM me , email me , wtv . Anything (:
Yes , i wanna go out loads.

& most prolly finding for a job .
I need dough man .

Okays.
thats it for NOW (:

xoxo.


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Oh & update.
1:27 AM

My art piece (: which actually earned a 73.


& that's the big big pool @ nicole's house !


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Ystd , went home with nicole to her place. Her condo looks like ETP at the front la . Hahah .
She has a very adorable sister named Laura & another sister named Megan :D
& we had heart to heart talked. Bus-ed home.
& some shit happened that like totally made me moody .
Then slept.
I didn't go sch today. Haha :D Tmrw's PTC ))):
Confirm Ms foo will crap about my fucked-up results siah .
Nbszx.
Oh , wtv.
I promise myself that i'll work harder for CA2 & SA2 .
I will .
& i mean it .
xoxo.



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Just new & better.
11:45 PM
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
I have a couple 'o' blogs eh ?
So i'm starting off again .
I'll be deleting heartbeats-ofyourjuliette soon .
So if there's anything ,
it'll all be posted on rhythemof-love (:

Takecare , darlings.

xoxo.
DSEF.


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